Ego Disillusion

This sketch is a meditation on meditation, or more precisely, on the absurd, relentless nature of the mind. Co-written with my friend Arthur Lemon, it captures the dissonance between the intention to cultivate stillness and the chaotic reality of inner life.

What begins as a practice of peaceful attention is quickly derailed by memory, song lyrics, sexual frustration, mortality, and whatever else the mind decides to throw in. Sam Harris, a Militant Atheist and Meditation Guru, described the experience as follows:

Your mind is the most rambling, chaotic, needling, insulting, insufferable person you will ever meet. It’s like having some maniac walk through the front door of your house and follow you from room to room and refuse to stop talking.

Here’s an attempt to portray this scene.

At the start of each scene, MEDITATOR sits alone center stage. STREAM (OF CONSCIOUSNESS) enters from the side and pesters MEDITATOR. MEDITATOR gives in and mirrors/joins STREAM for a short while. When bell rings, MEDITATOR is reminded of the practice and STREAM goes off-stage.
INT. THOUGHT - STAND BY ME

MEDITATOR

(counting breaths) One, two, three, four…

STREAM

When the night / has come / and the light / is dark

MEDITATOR

Ah it’s that song. OK I’m observing that song.

STREAM

And the moon…

MEDITATOR

Is the only light you’ll see

(they continue singing together)

Meditation bell rings

MEDITATOR (CONT'D)

Aghhh, no, get out! I’m meditating! I need to come back to the moment!!

INT. THOUGHT - MANU CHAO

MEDITATOR

Whatever arises is okay. Don't try to change or fix anything, just see clearly.

STREAM

I want that manu chao hat the peruvian one even though manu chao is not from peru, but that hat would look good on me and it’s probably very easy to fit tightly on the head given it’s got those two straps that you can pull on

MEDITATOR

i guess they’re also like reins for blowjobs, for modulating the proceedings and i haven’t had a blowjob in about three

STREAM

Three months

Meditation bell rings

MEDITATOR

Aghhh not again, i got lost in thought. This breath is a new beginning

INT. THOUGHT - MOTHER

STREAM

I need to call my mother

MEDITATOR

This is a thought. Return to the breath.

STREAM

I’m not ready for the day my mother will die

MEDITATOR

Of course I am ready

STREAM

Yeah sure you have a spotify playlist ready and everything

Meditation bell rings
INT. THOUGHT - CLEAN YOUR ROOM

STREAM

(from edge, brandishing a vacuum cleaner)

How can you expect to clean your mind if your room is a mess?

INT. THOUGHT - FART

STREAM

You need to fart

MEDITATOR

Thought passes like a cloud in the sky

STREAM

This thing is bulging in your stomach and is ready for detonation

MEDITATOR

I am not my thoughts

STREAM

Bro you're not meditating you're holding a hostage.

MEDITATOR

I welcome all things... even internal combustion.

STREAM

Emission control, standing by. Ignition sequence start. Trajectory locked. Civilians clear. Five, four, three, two, one

STREAM exits before countdown reaches zero.
INT. THOUGHT - ETERNAL ITCH

STREAM

(tickling MEDITATOR with a feather)

Scratchy scratchy, wow, this really itches.

MEDITATOR

Observe the sensation. Don't scratch.

(loud coughing sound is heard)

MEDITATOR (CONT'D)

Did you hear this? Can you believe this? That person is such a terrible meditator. They gave in to their bodily needs. They can't control their mind. Unlike me. I have achieved perfect equanimity.

STREAM

(tickling MEDITATOR again)

Luckily you've got hands to scratch this itch. Which itches.

MEDITATOR

Do not react. There is no such thing as an eternal itch.

STREAM places a sticker on MEDITATOR's face

MEDITATOR (CONT'D)

I don't wanna die from this. Humanity needs me.

Meditation bell rings
INT. THOUGHT - MORTALITY

STREAM

(holding a skull)

Look what I found buried deep within you

MEDITATOR

In, out

STREAM

Yeah you're out. You're out of time. Your time is gone. You were never good enough. You're gonna die.

MEDITATOR

That is a thought.

STREAM

(places the skull on MEDITATOR’s lap)

Feel the weight of your mortality.

MEDITATOR

Why is it wet?

STREAM

That's not important.

MEDITATOR

I'm in the present.

STREAM

(pointing to the skull)

The present is just a countdown to this

STREAM leaves stage

STREAM (CONT'D)

Your left eyebrow is uneven!

INT. THOUGHT - PSEUDOVICTORY

MEDITATOR

Ah, five whole minutes without a single thought. I am achieving enlightenment.

STREAM

You're feeling so serene.

MEDITATOR

I really am quite advanced.

STREAM

You are pure consciousness, you can feel the pure awareness.

MEDITATOR

(pointing at himself)

Yes I have transcended reality.

STREAM

Yes you completely transcended the illusion of thought and merged with the cosmic consciousness.

MEDITATOR

Look at this total mental silence.

STREAM

You are witnessing the very essence of meditation, the complete absence of any mental content whatsoever.

MEDITATOR

(frustrated)

These are thoughts, I've been thinking about the observer observing the observer observing nothing.

STREAM leaves stage
INT. THOUGHT - CLANDESTINO

STREAM

(To the tune of Clandestino)

Solo, voy con mi drama
Sola, va mi trama
Pensar es mi reflejo
Aunque quiera soltar
Pa’ una sesión sin norte
Me senté a meditar
Mi mente se escapó
Entre el pensar y divagar
Perdido en el rincón
De mi mente sin control
Me dicen: El Pensativo
Yo soy el quiebra zen
Voz interna, clandestina
Autoengaño, clandestino
Tren de caos, clandestino
Pensamiento, ILEGAL
Meditation bell rings multiple times